I feel incredibly alive.
Not only because I am having a great time traveling, but reclaiming a great sense of curiosity and self confidence that I seemed to have left behind in the back seat of a metro bus on my way to work. It is a humbling experience to travel on my own in a country where I speak none of her language, know nobody except the two Couch Surfer hosts who have now become my new friends, and appreciate little of her history except what I have read in history books.
Praha didn't make me come alive; I made me come alive. Praha was the catalyst that did it. It is a subtle yet important difference. It is the beckoning from curiosity and the crave for people connection.
As for self confidence, it wasn't that I have somehow "lost" the confidence. It is the contentment. Things got easy, so I stopped pushing myself and the boundaries. I settled, and then I became content. And the mind went stagnant. I am not talking about the typical concept of "career growth" - by the way do you know who made up that concept, by the way? Me neither. I am talking about the growth of the mind. A growth that can only be developed and expanded through the insatiable appetite of curiosity.
Six days into the Praha/Krakow excursion...
What I appreciate:
The time spent and relationship built with my niece Katie, my travel companion.
Worst food so far:
Mystery meat with creamed spinach and lukewarm tortellini with coagulated cheese sauce, courtesy of Delta Airlines on our trans-Atlantic flight.
Best food so far:
Kristyna, my CS hostess' home cooked meals in Pardubice and Cestko, CR
My new motto:
"I don't have a schedule; I'll just play it by ear."
(Given what I do for a living, it is not exactly a phrase I should repeat often, at least not aloud.)
What feels really good:
Getting around and traveling by ourselves on trains and city buses, tackling all the unfamiliarities, unknowns, confusion, and physical discomfort
What I remind myself constantly:
"I can do this."
What I miss the most:
Fresh salad that Eric makes everyday
I am heading to Auschwitz/Birkenau tomorrow. I don't know what emotions I will feel afterwards. One thing I know, however. History must be learned and remembered. And some of them must never ever allowed to repeat.
Daisy, this is my favorite blog post yet. Thoughtful, interesting sentiments. It definitely made me have some feelings.
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